My mom has made the decision to stop all treatment with my dad. He will stay on his steroids, anti seizure medication and all other meds that help him stay comfortable. But she has decided to do no more Temodar, Avastin, radiation or anything along those lines. She feels that this is what my dad would have wanted. To die in peace. He has fought hard and been such a strong person. Never complaining, never feeling sorry for himself. Just saying “It is what it is.” and going on with his life.
I am so grateful for the 4 really good months we got after his first surgery. We all got to spend time with him and make memories with him. I am glad I had this conversation with him. It gives me peace to know that he knows how much I love him.
My mom will call Hospice this next week and go from there. I am planning on taking as much time off work as I need to to be down there with her and my dad. I am lucky that my job/boss is so supportive and letting me do what I need to do in this situation. I am feeling sad for my brother who leaves tomorrow to go back to grad school in Colorado. It will probably be the last time he will see my dad before he dies. I am glad he has gotten to spend the past week with him.
I am very sad, but also filled with peace still as I said before. I know he has lived a good life. I know he will be welcomed with open arms by my grandmother, uncle and great grandparents. I know he won’t be sad or alone, nor will he be feeling any pain or complications from this horrible disease anymore. Knowing that gives me even more peace.