Cry scale today is probably 9. It is such a bunch of conflicting emotions.
Relief because it is all over with.
Happiness because dad is now at peace and cancer free.
Emptiness because I want to talk to him.
Exhaustion because I am coming off of 17 days of this being my sole focus. Taking care of dad, planning the funeral, the funeral.
Anger because I hate this disease and read of others going through it right now and know exactly how they are feeling and how it is going to end for them too.
Wanting normalcy again……