After – 6 Months – Birthday

“As long as we can love each other, and remember the feeling of love we had, we can die without ever really going away. All the love you created is still there. All the memories are still there. You live on in the hearts of everyone you have touched and nurtured while you were here.” Mitch Albom from Tuesdays With Morrie.

Today would have been my dad’s 69th birthday. I miss him. It is hard to believe it has been 6 months. It seems longer than that, and also so much shorter than that. I imagine him in heaven today with a big birthday cake shaped like a fish celebrating the day he came to this world and all the lives he touched just because he was him.

Love you Dad.

fishcake

We will be having a cake tonight to celebrate all the wonderful memories we have of dad. My husband thinks it is a little weird, but I want to do it, and when I told my 5 year old this morning that it was Grandpa’s birthday she immediately asked what kind of cake we were having.  So there is no way not to have one now.

Mom is hanging in there. It has been an emotional few days.  Sunday was 6 months since dad died, and today his birthday.  On the 18th will be Mom & Dad’s 46th wedding anniversary. Lots of “firsts” this month.  It is really hard to believe that we have made it half way through the first year already.  Like I said above, it seems like it has been longer and it seems like it has been shorter.  I can honestly say though that it is easier.  I still hate it as much as day one, but it isn’t as sharp anymore.  I can keep the cry scale at about .05 now.  Which is great progress.

 

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2 thoughts on “After – 6 Months – Birthday

  1. Oh, I read your post with tears in my eyes. I’m with you, sister. All these firsts are very painful. It’s been 7 months since my mom died. Watching my dad try to put his life together (with God’s help, of course) is really, really hard. I know we’ll work through the grief, but my gosh, it hurts like heck.

    I’m so glad you’re going to have birthday cake in celebration of your dad. He would want you to do that, I’m sure. There’s a special peace in celebrating the lives of those we loved and lost.

    Praying for you and your family…

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